Implication

A crime has been committed: I stopped writing entirely for nearly three weeks after I returned to Portland.  When I started back up, there were gaps in all my journals and in my thesis.  There was a large period of time in which nothing seemed selfless in telling.  Anyone who would read about me knew about me.  This now also seems a problem with my thesis.  As I often do think to myself, “It’s Time to Lose Your First Person Young Female Narrator Who Is Essentially A  Stand In For Yourself.”  This stopped the journaling and obviously the thesis.  Who am I and who is Oblina?  And more importantly, Who Gives A Shit?

The solution has been pulling away from the self and talking about the people who need to be written about: not me. This has lead to a “we” cropping up.  I have been reading Yiyun Li’s A Thousand Years of Good Prayers and Jean Thompson’s Throws Like A Girl.  The sympathic group, the group implication, the “we did this, but among us, there was one – and let me tell you about him,” story model.

My wikipedia-articles-visited list is a good predictor of what I’ll be writing next.  However, the articles don’t always line up, or only tangentially reveal my state of mind, and don’t accurately help you, the reader, know exactly what bullshittery I am up to next.

In order to get any of you looking forward to what I’ve been writing and how I’ve been editing, please accept the following list of wikipedia articles as a small token – a reminder that I will write here more often and try never to leave again for so long a time.

-Cadaver

-Death

-Hospital

-New York City

-Burn Unit

I also studied all the human hair articles, which are too numerous to post here.